I've had quite a life-changing experience. My last blog post ended on the way to Fiji. I was only meant to be there for a few weeks, but life had other ideas. I changed my flights back to NZ twice, in order to jump on two other boats. One of those boats was Little Fish,… Continue reading I Learned to Say Yes to Life
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From Depression to Adventure
It’s been a long time since I’ve written a blog post. The last few that I have written have not been filled with the wonders of life. They were the darker side of some of life’s experiences. This one is a combination of the two. Think of it like a Disney movie. It starts dark,… Continue reading From Depression to Adventure
Police Update
It's been a while since I have updated anyone on what's been happening. Mainly because I've been living my life and not wanting to spend my days thinking about that night. After reporting my sexual assault, I knew that it would be a waiting game. It is still a waiting game, only we're now at… Continue reading Police Update
Who Am I?
I don't recognise myself at the moment. That's not a bad thing, in fact it is an amazing thing. I finally got into the police station and had my interview. To say it was hard, would be an understatement. Walking to the station seemed to take a lifetime. My insides were churning, I could feel… Continue reading Who Am I?
I Am Angry
I am angry. I am so fucking angry. I have been completely livid when I think about what I am about to do for the past few days. My police interview has been booked, and when it was confirmed, I was anxious. I feared sitting in that interview room and being judged. After I spoke… Continue reading I Am Angry
Lockdown Done Differently
Here in Auckland, we are nearly four weeks into a level four lockdown. For those not in New Zealand, when we do a lockdown, we do it properly. You can go to the supermarket, doctors, pharmacies, petrol stations and if you are an essential worker, you can go to work. You can also go out… Continue reading Lockdown Done Differently
Choosing Happiness over Fear
When New Zealand went into level 4 lockdown, fear ran through my body. As many of you know, the last lockdown nearly broke me. Too much time with my thoughts led to memories and feelings that I had “successfully” hidden from for years, making themselves known. I was in such a dark space, and being… Continue reading Choosing Happiness over Fear
Life is Too Short – So F**K It!
I am not entirely sure what this post will be about. A little of this, a little of that. An update and some of my random thoughts that I'd like to share with you all. I have filed sexual assault/rape/assault by penetration (Delete as you see fit) charges in the UK against my attacker, for… Continue reading Life is Too Short – So F**K It!
An Open Letter to My Rapist
A week ago, I was informed that you read my blog and admitted everything I had said was true. I thought that upon hearing that I would feel a sense of relief. Instead, a volcano erupted inside me and all I felt was a burning rage. I hated you with a fiery passion. It wasn’t… Continue reading An Open Letter to My Rapist
The Aftermath of Honesty
I've been away with work for the past 6 months, I kept saying to myself "I should write my next post and tell everyone how I am doing." There was always a reason not to. The reality is I am mostly good, I have some bad days, but the good outweighs the bad. Since writing… Continue reading The Aftermath of Honesty